I often wonder about how my life would be
If we hadn’t met.
If I didn’t notice your scent lingering
long after you had left the room
If I hadn’t seen you for you,
Instead of the spiky exterior everybody else knew,
And then it happened.
The smallest taste and my brain was askew
See, you weren’t like the rest of them.
You weren’t subtle about anything.
You were fierce,
You contradicted yourself so beautifully
I felt guilty for being confused.
But sweet things too, turn sour eventually
Yes, the last thing people felt about you was indifference
And yes, it was this same quality I once so strongly envied
You flew too close to the sun, Icarus
The distinct smell I once recognised immediately turned pungent…
It was clear we were nearing our end
I hated how there was so much of you I couldn’t comprehend
The more I came to know, the harder
you were to defend.
Suddenly you were too much
Too much of something
for me to just feel indifferent.
So I decided to let go,
of what could never truly be mine.
I hope we’re acquainted in another lifetime
And I hope we can be friends.